I am one of the few that was raised by two amazing people.
It wasn’t a perfect childhood but fuck it, it was on another level.
Taught us to be civil and never fear the devil.
Being grounded is what I really picked up from a few things.
Talk about one day we could rule like Queens and Kings.
What a beautiful feeling that I’m feeling when I dream!
It’s not what it seems, though we made a few mistakes.
We were all together for a prayer. Still together for the dinner.
I was never a great listener but boy, I was a sinner.
My brother has a temper. And the party scene is for our sister.
My father is just a great mind away to be his father.
Changing who I am is silly so I just won’t even bother.
Never judge them for who I turn out to be.
We go to church on sundays as a complete family.
But where did they go wrong to have someone turn out to be like me?
Am I living up to the name?
Or am I fucking up the reign?
Will they be proud of me if they see me now?
Am I really wearing my name out loud?
Or maybe I’m just putting it down.
It’s starting to be gloomy surrounded by these dark clouds.
I tend to be a clown instead of wearing the precious crown,
But my blood flows from the teachings of never laying ground.
Mama I’m sorry! Can you hear me now?!
I’ll take another route. It’s just another gray area in my life.
Let the bad days pass me by.
I’ll find a perfect wife. And together till we die.
If I struggle I’ll just close my eyes. Then look up in the sky.
“Papa, I’m asking you to guide me to the mark of my inception.”
Have a son named after me for my only redemption.
I’m hoping he will be the person I never was.
A great grandson and the great grand son.
I had a terrible nightmare but I didn’t mind.
It was the type of dream where I woke up teary eyed.
But I was fine.
As long as you were there for me to see from time to time.
It keeps intact the motivation that I’ve been hiding from behind.
Sometimes it even keeps my soul alive.
Hoping that one day, once again, atleast in my own dreams, you’d be mine.
I just never wanted to see you go.
That’s why now I’m wishing I was blind.
So I won’t have to see the thievery.
Because stealing you away from me is a crime.
Now that you’re in someone else’s arms and onto a different flow of things.
The princess in my love story has switched into a different show.
Loving you is all I know.
The clouds suddenly turned gray and I’ve lost my true identity.
Then I woke up to see it was a dream, how silly.
But then again you still aren’t with me.
Seems like reality agrees with fantasy but it just isn’t for me.
I’m sitting down thinking back.
Knowing the past was the past.
And my chances had passed.
Feeling crushed it didn’t last.
Even though we had our blast, the trust has been long gone.
It was wrong to be thinking that forever is a must.
Focused on putting myself back together stitch by stitch.
All I need is a time to heal.
After a long free fall in this Lover’s ditch.
Life has presented the greatest risk.
I took it, then ended with that final kiss.
Huddled up together from dusk ‘til dawn.
Relaxing looking at the sun rise ‘til it sets.
Is one of my favorite memory that could never be drawn.
Plans had changed since then.
Been sitting at the lawn all alone.
It’s a mess but I’m blessed.
always being at the back of my mind is bitter sweet.
Looking for the next puzzle to complete.
It’s insane how I gained another pain.
I can’t wait for the day where I stopped loving you.
The day where I don’t even remember your name.
The day where I found someone else who’s always been true.
I just can’t wait for the day where yesterday is something I can look pass again.
That moment that I can forget about your existence.
But those odds keeps lessen,
for every second of everyday I’ll be thinking…
After all the bullshit exceeded,
After all that we’ve been through,
You were the life I never knew I needed. ‘Til the day that I lost you.
She said she just wanna be my friend,
But then again we just cant stop and stare,
Im aware that we just cant pretend,
That every night she by my side, laughin’ turn to lovin’
You see the flare in her eyes and a flow that’s so nice,
She never really wanna go
And I know everything about her from her head to her toe,
In public all we get’s a passing nod,
Nothing more legit,
Friend’s with benefits but a love that counterfeits,
Slow warm breath as I whisper in her ear,
Kissing the back of her neck down her spine,
By this time, mind is never crystal clear,
No strings attached, so nothing is set in stone,
Falsetto every moan. She may be a freak but I know that she grown.
Miss independent but she naughty so she blown…away.
I hope that she stay, but all she wanna do is play.
So I made love to her. Dig in deeper like its now or never.
Stimulate her mind and aim for the core.
Satisfy all her needs and more.
All over the kitchen floor.
Listening to Jazz but I can see she feeling my Soul.
Tomorrow I’m a friend, but tonight I got the boyfriend’s role.
But a snap back to reality that she may be nothing more.
Or we can make it work. With all her amazing perk.
With just a little smirk, she’s just the perfect flirt.
A buddy of mine we find a way to coexist.
A body that’s so fine I just can’t resist.
She’s a friend with benefits with just a little twist.
Catch a falling star then start to make a wish,
Heaven is never grotesque but always unpredictable,
Rely on your beauty to lead me to eternal bliss,
If this is how happiness feels like then ‘Forever’ would be probable,
Starting ‘Forever’ each day with one special kiss,
The look in your eyes reminds me each time of how I fell,
Instantly feels like the first day all over again,
Never ending love cast by our very own heart’s spell,
A hope that this reign would never end but maintain its domain,
Knowing that this world will come to an end,
Inevitably spending each minute with you like it’s my last,
Maybe less about the past and more about us,
Trust in me and every problems and obstacles we can both outlast,
Revealing our negative persona still couldn’t make us collide,
A love so potent that another life is implied,
No worries, for everyday a guarantee that I’ll be by your side.
I wish i was a phone,
So the people I care about can talk to me everyday.
But some of my friends treat me like a bong.
they suck it up, they suck it up,
then blow me away.
I wish I was a phone,
So the girl that I keep thinking about would hold me carefully.
But the girl that I love treats me like a song.
She plays me, She plays me
then skip to a better song.
Damn I wish I was a phone.
To be never forgotten everytime you walk out the door.
and if I was left alone, your day wouldn’t be complete anymore.
but she left me, she left me
because everything I thought was right, in her eyes it was wrong.
If I was a phone,
a missed call would be a call right back.
But I’m not, I’m waiting for your call while looking at the wall…stucked.
For all the things that I’d give just to be a phone.
Another phone fell is another phone caught anxiously.
but I’m not a phone. so when I fall she’s not there to catch me.
Man, I wish I was a phone.
pretty young thing is the perfect bright prize
a pleasant device, a conclusion so precise,
surprise for the eyes perfection in disguise,
gotta flow, you have the glow, youre not a hoe,
always on top never below, how could you be so adorable?
forget KC, ‘all my life’ I’ve been looking for a jo.
like a 7/11 store, keep it coming back for more
do a show while you’re walking through the door
if loving you is wrong then im going to hell
reincarnated to see the face in which i fell
feelin like heaven again
then cast that magic spell
loving you a sin,then i must be the devil, who met this pretty angel
its time to be official
caught a bullet from this cupid loving you is lucid
who said? we cant be the duo?
though im not a pro we should grow never slow
if loving you’s a test, i got a 4.0
She got the glow of happiness wrapped around her,
walks down the aisle as you hear people whisper,
“her beauty compliments her smile, i’m looking at her bright future.”
Her parents drowning with tears,
As she stood right next to him nervous without encountering fear,
Everyone feels their love around,
Flash back to where i messed up my chances surrounds,
Put my feet in the ground for there my heart could be found,
Broken, tired, alone, beaten down as it appears,
Meanwhile their eyes both filled with tears of joy while smiling from ear to ear,
I came uninvitend but my intentions were clear,
Since the start all i want is for her to be happy,
Set her free, as long as she’s content with path she chose wisley,
This guy should feel very lucky,
Because seeing her in that bright white gown, all i could think of is…
that could’ve been me.